despot

I learnt it yesterday in a course. Well, first of all  what is the freedom? It is basicly, ability to do everything you want. Then the usual and also boring question comes: "Are we really free?" After thinking a bit about on liberty, I found another question as a response to previous one:"Should we be really that free?"
Please now think about your childhood. How we are brave! Or silly basicly. We used to give damage all the time when we just try to play the game regardless of thinking the results. Sometimes even  if we know consequences of our dangerous games, we did not give up playing except one situation: our family did not let us play some of them and also they  made themselves sure that we are away from danger like playing with fire.   Actually, I always acted out and faced results as the damages myself and others around me. When my family tried to keep me far away, I thought I am not free and they are exactly despots.
    Even today, they intend to do something to protect me, they always warn me, sometimes worry for me which bore me, but their activities are getting restricted as proportional to my age (Thanks to God, they are aware of the fact that my silliness remained as a part of my childhood). Although sometimes it makes me angry, I know  they do all these things to protect me because they love me. Moreover, I do same thing to people I love.
     I really love at most 10 people of my  life as usual and they are really important for me. I want them not be sick, unhappy, angry, tired etc. and I tried to do something for them. That is not an unusal thing. But, I realized that sometimes I really exaggerate and I bore them! Like a mother, all the time I think of them, try to protect them such as children. They are nearly my peers except my mother and father. Most of them do not complain about it because, sometimes they really need some special care and I exaggerate sometimes, sometimes's usually get unified, soo we do not have problems. Exraordinary cases are not counted.
   To sum up, Yess I am the despot for my people and there are despots in my life. I am happy to beloved. I'm  glad presence of the barriers (family, friends, lover etc) trying to protect me, even sometimes I don't want them to interfere with my doings. So, I do not want to be totally free,because I know I am setted free totally, then I 'm never loved that much by anybody.
Written by free and beloved young lady(!)

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